reeling and grasping...

Sometimes, even though everything is amazing...if you actually sit back and count how many things are good, how many undeserved blessings are in your life (and it's staggering how many you have) one thing not going well, can make all the difference in the world. You're left trying desparately to find your direction, suddenly forced to question your direction, forced into a position you would normally give ANYTHING to avoid. Even with all the doubt...even when you're facing questions that are scary and disturbing, uncomfortable and harsh...underneath it all, in the cockle region of your heart....you know. And, knowing...IS a wonderful thing.